What goes around, comes back around.
It sucks to be you right now.
♥ Date: Sunday, October 16, 2011
♥ Date: Tuesday, October 04, 2011
Hellooooooo
I found my dream man...hahaha but well I'm not gonna get him la. But his hot in his smart vest and coat. Melting. Saw him at the financial talk.
My so called mentor is Suhaimi Yusof and his wife. Alrite not gonna blog about it. But it's really a good opportunity and knowledge to earn $$$$$$$ and probably become a millionaire. No kidding, they've been successful. So yeah.....
So it's just a matter of you want to do it or not. Be confident, visualise.
I can't wait for holidays. Can't wait for a stay at MBS. Definitely gonna go up the rooftop and dip in the pool.
Can't wait for whatevers unplan........let's just plan last minute la huh.
Lastly, I don't know what my heart says now. I truly much want to say NO but I'm drawing my line already. I rather be you know unhappy instead of just lying to myself. So chill ar.
I wish there's a ghost whisperer. They say whatever's done, it's done but how about things that you always wanna tell but you just don't have the opportunity. If I die, I wanna die in peace you know. Well, all the best in your life at your side. You were once there and God knows best.
Hellooooooo
I found my dream man...hahaha but well I'm not gonna get him la. But his hot in his smart vest and coat. Melting. Saw him at the financial talk.
My so called mentor is Suhaimi Yusof and his wife. Alrite not gonna blog about it. But it's really a good opportunity and knowledge to earn $$$$$$$ and probably become a millionaire. No kidding, they've been successful. So yeah.....
So it's just a matter of you want to do it or not. Be confident, visualise.
I can't wait for holidays. Can't wait for a stay at MBS. Definitely gonna go up the rooftop and dip in the pool.
Can't wait for whatevers unplan........let's just plan last minute la huh.
Lastly, I don't know what my heart says now. I truly much want to say NO but I'm drawing my line already. I rather be you know unhappy instead of just lying to myself. So chill ar.
I wish there's a ghost whisperer. They say whatever's done, it's done but how about things that you always wanna tell but you just don't have the opportunity. If I die, I wanna die in peace you know. Well, all the best in your life at your side. You were once there and God knows best.
♥ Date: Monday, September 19, 2011
Woh! Woh! I..I LOVE YOU LIKE A LOVE SONG BABY!! Can you feel the electric and excitement?! Yes, I do! I do, baby!
♥ Date: Sunday, September 18, 2011
Having the time of my life I guess. I'm much more comfortable with people around me now. I have love, sympathy, friendship and sincerity. I guess as I grew up, I'm keeping more confidentiality. Just let the story of my life flow in my private book kept by the one above. It is interesting to be leading the life of, Ziza BlackRouge, that is me haha. Not to be proud but yup a lot of interesting things happened even though I'm only a young adult. Not too young huh? I'm gonna have middle age crisis soon oh oh. *Gasp*. As a matter of fact, Surrendered Singles still exist. After bygones and bygones happened, hey we're here again. Back to basics, ladies. I've always considered S. S as my backbone, come what may. I'm leading my life as it is, no rush, no nothing. I don't want to put any number to when I'm finally settling down. It's just not my forte yet ;) . Well I'm gonna reveal a secret here which will no more be a secret after I type it down here. Hmmm...just like the secret life of Ziza BlackRouge chey! I've been asked for the hands in marriage by a man Tadaa! And I rejected it. It's not easy, damn not easy when it already involved the families. But I'm all head up, chin's up again. :) I am very sure up in my brain here and deep in my heart, that the man was obviously not my soulmate. Hey I'm still sane okay. Not gonna sign my life away just like that. I'd rather be happier now than regret years down the road thinking it was a mistake afterall. So that's all a lil bit of sugar and spice in my life. I'm on my mission now to travel the world before I got a title, someone's Mrs hahahaha. May Allah bless my life. Amin.
♥ Date: Sunday, May 22, 2011
When was the last time I updated?
16th April...righhhhtttt.
Because on the 16th April something did happened.
So it's been more than a month old.
I must be lying if I say I'm not happier now.
I'm just being myself and leading life as it is.
No high hopes, no expectations just as simple, as it is now :)
Afterall, my 'teenagehood' crush is already getting married.
I found him after several years and wondered so much who has been flying all this while. Guess what? He's the one. He's the air- steward!
I used to call him as the 'motor putih guy' (The guy with the white bike) cause I don't even know his name all along.
All I could remember is him and his bike at that point of time.
I met him again just to found out that he's already engaged and getting married.
It doesn't matter how much I jokingly bragged about it to my lil cousins but still, he's not for me afterall la huh....sad eh?
Hahahaha...like as if he would go head over heels for me.
So let's just smile and be happy for him.
Who knows, his other half and him would be my neighbour one day!
You never know haha.
But it was a blessing in disguise I guess.
I found a happier route all along the way.
When was the last time I updated?
16th April...righhhhtttt.
Because on the 16th April something did happened.
So it's been more than a month old.
I must be lying if I say I'm not happier now.
I'm just being myself and leading life as it is.
No high hopes, no expectations just as simple, as it is now :)
Afterall, my 'teenagehood' crush is already getting married.
I found him after several years and wondered so much who has been flying all this while. Guess what? He's the one. He's the air- steward!
I used to call him as the 'motor putih guy' (The guy with the white bike) cause I don't even know his name all along.
All I could remember is him and his bike at that point of time.
I met him again just to found out that he's already engaged and getting married.
It doesn't matter how much I jokingly bragged about it to my lil cousins but still, he's not for me afterall la huh....sad eh?
Hahahaha...like as if he would go head over heels for me.
So let's just smile and be happy for him.
Who knows, his other half and him would be my neighbour one day!
You never know haha.
But it was a blessing in disguise I guess.
I found a happier route all along the way.
♥ Date: Saturday, April 16, 2011
Love always makes me Haunted, another epic story.
♥ Date: Wednesday, April 13, 2011
I heed and nailed down those words.
I'm the girl who tries to be perfect but it all comes to a disaster.
I was told that,
"Wanting to be perfect is the start of all disasters because the world isn't perfect either"
I heed and nailed down those words.And now I love being imperfect.
Imperfections makes me unique and above all I learnt from my mistakes.
At the end of the day, things will just pass by very smoothly
and I know I'm always protected by God.
I won't shy away to admit that I always gets into trouble and made wrongdoings
because of my own mistakes and carelessness.
I may look decent and all but god knows how many times I've got
myself into real deep trouble. Yup *gulp*
Sometimes it can be quite intense and stressful to always have
to portray a good- mannered, decent, well- behaved, respectable, vigilant, responsible and all kinds of good things a human being could possibly hold.
It's not easy. It has never been easy.
Especially when you hold a title as a 'Teacher'.
You will hear things like, "A teacher shouldn't be doing all this"
"She's a teacher. How could she be possibly do that?"
"Teacher this.....Teacher that....Teacher, teacher, teacher, it's all your fault"
Of course, I feel cooped up at times.
I feel I can't be real, the really real self of being me.
Like there's too many restrictions.
And hell yeah...over the years I've restrict myself A LOT.
By nature, I'm a happy- go- lucky person, spiritual, jovial, adventurous
and hates confinement.
But I guess over the years and situations changed my characters.
I miss being that old being.
I can't say being an educator has bring it all down...
Being in the education line has taught me a lot and build
positive characters that I never knew I have.
In other words, its beneficial.
Well, I need a change. I'm going to do it for
myself and not for others. Unless I can pass it all through la...then
I'll go *phewwwwww* at lasssstttt.
And talking about imperfections,
I'm glad I'm in good terms with the ex which I damn before.
Haha..I'm good, he's good.
We should have just decide to be friends and not more than that.
The best thing is, he admits his mistakes and he accepted my imperfections
like he has known me for long.
It's nice to know that the feeling of hatred or hating or anger is gone.
See, we could really talk to each other
and I noticed he's been different.
He's becoming more like a man and talks like a man.
I hope he continues to be more mature haha.
And maybe one day, I'll just accept his invitation to his wedding
and be happy for him :)
